The Innocent Malice
fountain of blood in the shape of a girl

My new horns are well underway! A friend of mine helped me make the horns with a papercraft pattern out of 6mm eva foam while I made the base out of 12mm, and I’ve now stuck them together and begun to coat them in pva glue. Hopefully before I go to bed tonight I can get another coat done, and then tomorrow I will start to layer them with spray putty. Then by Thursday I should be able to paint them. If I have trouble I will have to take Friday off, but I think this is all doable!!



I’m still trying to get the horns finished in time for Perth Supanova this weekend, but otherwise my costume is pretty much finished!It’s a pretty lousy picture, but I’m so happy!

I’m still trying to get the horns finished in time for Perth Supanova this weekend, but otherwise my costume is pretty much finished!

It’s a pretty lousy picture, but I’m so happy!

2ヶ月前 with 12 リアクション


I might be possibly maybe going to New York in October this year for NYCC! It’s still only a possibility, but I’m really excited at the idea of it happening. I’m from Australia and I’ve never been to the USA before so there is so much that I want to see and do (and eat). I think I could easily spend most of my time in NY.

I kind of want to go to Disneyland though (and the Harry Potter theme park because hurr hurr hurr) but I really don’t want to go alone - even though I am a really solitary person the idea of visiting theme parks on my own is a bit depressing. I’m really hoping that I can meet more people online from the US that are neat. I met a lot of nice people on livejournal but since then I haven’t met many more (and the ones I meet while travelling are always travelling).

Can anyone recommend awesome things to do and see in NY or the US? I’m a big nerd who likes candy and makeup (obviously I have will have to visit Economy Candy and a Sephora store) and dislikes clubbing/partying etc etc etc. ALSO HOMG HALLOWEEN

6ヶ月前 with 4 リアクション


Egh.

EGHH

My mum left for a short holiday to India yesterday morning for a friends wedding and has left the house in the care of me in her absence (truth be told it’s mostly keeping our derpy dogs under control and well fed) and I’m just not handling it at all. Mostly, I’m just not coping with my shitbag of a little brother who literally could not do what mum said for a full day. The only things he had to do were not have more than one friend over, and to not trash the house.

Lo and behold literally hours after mum had left he had a party of 6 of his knuckle dragging friends in the now trashed house. My dad won’t do anything about it (my parents aren’t talking to each other and he didn’t know she was going to India) and my sister is out of the house constantly. Although she believes it’s a-okay to berate me for complaining about the situation.

The house still has poop/dirt/something brown smeared out on the back tiles and there is still a dining room table with unironed and unfolded washing all over it, and last night the place was littered with oozing goon bags and cigarette butts. It looks a tiny bit better now but it’s still horrible. This morning there were still kids sleeping everywhere and I thought he would get his shit together and clean it up by this evening. The place is still a hole and he’s set up his bed in the living room so he can set the aircon to full and watch the tv (this means the dogs have nowhere to sleep). Earlier today I gave up and went to a friends house with my boyfriend which I’m glad I did. But when I came back at 8:00 no one had fed the dogs and the place was still disgusting. My mum just keeps telling me to ignore the mess and to push it aside, but being told that just infuriates me more? Like why should everyone simply have to just fucking put up with a disgusting shitbag? After mum gets back she’s also going to Vietnam for two weeks with my dad as well, meaning I’m stuck with it.

To put things in perspective, mum cleaned his room when he was working in Derby and we found a beer bottle with a strange mass growing inside it that smelt like a dead body; a dead mouse under the bed, months worth of dirty tupperware, filthy clothes and empty goon bags everywhere. He’ll clean it up if mum tells him to, but no one else (literally) can make him clean up. If you tell him to he’ll call you a fucking cunt and tell you to fuck up.

Sometimes I get really concerned that I’m a cranky and pedantic bitch because when he trashes the place I go nuts and call mum about it but I really don’t know what else I can do. I’ve been so excited for this week because it’s my only week off work but it’s just kind f vanished.

Like I can just leave but no one will remember to feed the dogs and the blame will fall on me for not doing it. Also I love my dogs and I don’t want anything bad to happen to them.

TL;DR I need to get out of the house before I go crazy.

6ヶ月前 with 3 リアクション


tl;dr I am a wussy wuss

When I was a little kid I was scared of normal things: evil beings under my bed, a monster inside the toilet and ghosts. As I’ve gotten older the things that scare me at night have changed - mostly due to events.

I don’t live in an amazingly safe neighbourhood – crimes happen all the time, and my mum taught me to be vigilant about staying safe. I wasn’t allowed to catch transport on my own for a very long time and I still get in the shit for walking after dark, even if it is from my bus to my door. I suppose as a result I’ve kind of inherited her worries but to a greater extent.

We’ve lived in the same house for nearly 23 years (I’m 21) and we have only had one robbery. It was when I was a baby and all they managed to do was pinch a few coins and bend my mum’s kitchen knife while unsuccessfully trying to break a window. We’ve been very lucky and I attribute this to a huge BEWARE OF THE DOG sign at the front of our house, two loud and aggressive seeming dogs and a huge stone fence with a confusing gate (it’s not confusing to me but hardly any of my friends understand how to move the latch) which is loud as fuck – I can hear it’s click from anywhere in the house at any time of the day.

None of this really made a difference though when two guys tried to get into our house earlier this year. It happened sometime in June at 1:30am, and I was the only one awake and present in the main section of our house; my parents were fast asleep at the end of the house in a part of the house that is mostly sectioned off. I was dicking around in the dining room area sewing a Loki costume and dancing like an absolute tit to my iPod. All of our curtains were open because we’ve never had to close them, and my dogs were dozing next to me. Over the night I felt like I was being watched or followed but I attributed it to having read too much creepypasta and SCP articles that day.

At 1:30am I decided I’d shower and get into bed. In our bathroom we have two large windows which are next to our shower. The windows are barred and have wire mesh on them, and on the inside there are four shutters – the bottom two are always closed and the top two stay open. I hopped in the shower and 10 seconds in I heard a loud knock at the window. I froze and turned off the water and didn’t move for another 10 seconds – after that I assumed it was just something  falling on the tin roof and that I was just being a twat. I turned the shower back on.

And then I heard a loud bang, and all four shutters burst open dramatically.

Naturally, I leapt out of the shower/bath with as much grace as a naked and sleep deprived person could muster, grabbed a towel and howled down the hall to my parents room. As I did this I passed the backdoor which has a huge tinted glass panel – I could see two figures running parallel to me. I screamed to my parents that someone was outside, and my dad bolted out and chased them out – they climbed over the stone wall and ran away. I didn’t sleep at all that night and at 3:30 I heard people talking outside my bedroom window (conveniently it is at the front of the house) and overheard them saying things like ‘you fucked it up’ etc ec.

For reasons beyond my understanding we didn’t call the police until a few days later – I spent the entire night completely frozen with fear. The next day we talked to our neighbours about it and found out that they had security cameras installed in their front yard to protect their cars. They let us watch the footage of the night and we saw two men walking past our house numerous times, eventually crawling up to watch my bedroom window a number of times, and again jumping over the fence and running away, and then walking by house later.

It all happened fucking ages ago and I know that it’s irrational to still think about it potentially happening again. But I’m still totally paranoid now about everything – I often freeze in my bed if I hear people walking by, and sometimes I’ll hear a loud noise in a song I’ll be listening to and I’ll mistake it for an outside noise. I just tried to have a shower now and I closed all four shutters (I can’t shower with any of them open now) and as I was showering the wind pushed the top two open slowly. I had a full on panic attack and didn’t move for like, 10 minutes and I didn’t take my eyes off the bottom two shutters the entire time.

It’s so god damn silly and juvenile but it scares the absolutely fucking shit out of me now, and having a bachelors of psych doesn’t mean fucking dick when the anxiety problems are your own. BLEGH.

9ヶ月前 with 6 リアクション


1年前 with 4 リアクション


I could have had a much better day today. I oh-so-successfully managed to royally dick up my second driving assessment with a simple error of going oh so slightly over the white line at a traffic light. It’s frustrating because I feel very confident in my driving and I’ve been told I’m competent, but my anxiety just takes over completely whenever I step into the car with the assessor.
So I spent most of the day cleaning my out my room and dusting down draws, and vaccuming dust and dirt. And studying and planning assignments. It makes me feel a bit better.
Later on, my love came over and we made choc chip cookies. It was the highlight of my day.  (´ω`)

I could have had a much better day today. I oh-so-successfully managed to royally dick up my second driving assessment with a simple error of going oh so slightly over the white line at a traffic light. It’s frustrating because I feel very confident in my driving and I’ve been told I’m competent, but my anxiety just takes over completely whenever I step into the car with the assessor.

So I spent most of the day cleaning my out my room and dusting down draws, and vaccuming dust and dirt. And studying and planning assignments. It makes me feel a bit better.

Later on, my love came over and we made choc chip cookies. It was the highlight of my day.  (´ω`)

2年前 with 3 リアクション


rafira:

lilacfawn:

I wore lolita for the first time in ages! I decided I would wear it to uni for my 8am class yesterday. I tried and tried to get a nice shot of my outfit but I couldn’t. I wore my lavender Fantasic Dolly high waisted jsk with my black chiffon, long sleeved AP blouse. 
It was freezing and rainy and I was exhausted, but I felt pretty ヽ(*・ω・)ノ

you look adorabs <3 what did your classmates say?


Not much, I think they’re getting used to it. I think I want to wear a different dress tomorrow too. :V

rafira:

lilacfawn:

I wore lolita for the first time in ages! I decided I would wear it to uni for my 8am class yesterday. I tried and tried to get a nice shot of my outfit but I couldn’t. I wore my lavender Fantasic Dolly high waisted jsk with my black chiffon, long sleeved AP blouse. 

It was freezing and rainy and I was exhausted, but I felt pretty (*ω)

you look adorabs <3 what did your classmates say?

Not much, I think they’re getting used to it. I think I want to wear a different dress tomorrow too. :V

2年前 with 7 リアクション — via rafira, © lilacfawn


I wore lolita for the first time in ages! I decided I would wear it to uni for my 8am class yesterday. I tried and tried to get a nice shot of my outfit but I couldn&#8217;t. I wore my lavender Fantasic Dolly high waisted jsk with my black chiffon, long sleeved AP blouse. 
It was freezing and rainy and I was exhausted, but I felt pretty ヽ(*・ω・)ノ

I wore lolita for the first time in ages! I decided I would wear it to uni for my 8am class yesterday. I tried and tried to get a nice shot of my outfit but I couldn’t. I wore my lavender Fantasic Dolly high waisted jsk with my black chiffon, long sleeved AP blouse. 

It was freezing and rainy and I was exhausted, but I felt pretty (*ω)

2年前 with 7 リアクション


Cut off almost all of my hair yesterday! :)
It&#8217;s pretty much a mohawk with both sides shaved off, but I&#8217;m totally clueless as to how to actually maintain it. It&#8217;s also a nice pink/mauve colour. I love my hairdresser.
(Right after I took this I randomly napped for 3 hours and dreamt about the zombie apocalypse happening at university. I think it was because I managed to pass all my units, even the one I was doomed to fail. I was really tired after work!)

Cut off almost all of my hair yesterday! :)

It’s pretty much a mohawk with both sides shaved off, but I’m totally clueless as to how to actually maintain it. It’s also a nice pink/mauve colour. I love my hairdresser.

(Right after I took this I randomly napped for 3 hours and dreamt about the zombie apocalypse happening at university. I think it was because I managed to pass all my units, even the one I was doomed to fail. I was really tired after work!)

2年前 with 2 リアクション


Heading to my boyfriends house for dinner- its his 21st. I tried to dye my hair a very pale lilac, and my hair was toned well. Its kind of noticeable, but still quite grey. I don&#8217;t think I used nearly enought lilac dye, probably 1 teaspoon to half a cup of conditioner? I&#8217;ll have to try again soon, but only after I make progress with my paper on video game violence. Pew pew!

Heading to my boyfriends house for dinner- its his 21st. I tried to dye my hair a very pale lilac, and my hair was toned well. Its kind of noticeable, but still quite grey. I don’t think I used nearly enought lilac dye, probably 1 teaspoon to half a cup of conditioner? I’ll have to try again soon, but only after I make progress with my paper on video game violence. Pew pew!

2年前 with 7 リアクション


This is me trying out my new Diamond Lash &#8216;Fairy Eye&#8217; lashes! They fit so nicely, and don&#8217;t look too over the top or chunky! I trimmed them down about 4&#160;mm because part of it was stabbing me in the corner of my eyes.
They&#8217;re really light too, as I&#8217;ve started to wear falsies more and more I&#8217;m getting accustomed to them. I should take a photo of my eyelash collection!
Also trying out a new iPhone 4 app called DecoPic. It&#8217;s a bit weird but it&#8217;s cute. :3

This is me trying out my new Diamond Lash ‘Fairy Eye’ lashes! They fit so nicely, and don’t look too over the top or chunky! I trimmed them down about 4 mm because part of it was stabbing me in the corner of my eyes.

They’re really light too, as I’ve started to wear falsies more and more I’m getting accustomed to them. I should take a photo of my eyelash collection!

Also trying out a new iPhone 4 app called DecoPic. It’s a bit weird but it’s cute. :3

2年前 with 2 リアクション


felicefawn:

Cute, do want.

felicefawn:

Cute, do want.

2年前 with 1,827 リアクション — via bunnybloomers-deactivated201111